What have I been up to since we broke up? Well, right now I’m listening to music that explains how I feel about recent events, and thinking what’s been happening and the fact that even the people/person you thought would always be there for you, someone who would accept you for who you are- can go from being in love with you to pushing you away and blame you for everything that happened. I changed my life for the better, you said you’d do the same but look at where you are now. I’m a happier person, I’m moving forward while you’re throwing your life away with drinking and getting high and for what? It gets you nowhere, doesn’t change anything at all and wastes money you don’t have to spend. I’m moving on, all you ever did was bring me down, told me to change yet somehow convinced me I was perfect for you. I’m done with putting up with your bullshit. Done with hearing the fucking “I miss you” bullshit because if you really fucking missed me you’d talk to me instead of argue, you’d make time to see me instead of bullshit excuses. Grow the fuck up, nobody’s going to want to be with someone who does whatever the fuck they want even if it offends who they’re with. I’ll be sitting here laughing while you get into other drugs and become an alcoholic. If you can’t get over me why the fuck did you end things?
Good luck with moving on, don’t expect me to try pick up the pieces that are left of you because you destroyed me and didn’t care.
anxiety is terrible, you could be having an attack and no one would even know because it’s an inward thing. it feels like you’re malfunctioning and you can’t process your own thoughts. you get a knot in your stomach and you can’t take a full breath but outwardly you can literally just sit there and look completely normal as long as no one tries to speak to you.
Yep that about sums it up